underneath your clothes there's an endless story. you're the man i choose you are my territory
yesterday, had i done a mind map of what i was feeling it would have read something like silly, exposed, small, angry, even bitter. and all this because of a nobody in my life. a nobody who is going through a midlife crisis, tremendous insecurities etc etc. but knowing all this could not help me feel better yesterday. i had to take time out to feel what i was feeling in its entirety. had to live the feeling completely before it would vanish. deal with it thread by thread. go back to the details . understand their meaning. take my time with them.
and then today there is a sense of relief. i feel comforted, calm, secure and even loved. and i experience all this in a more heightened sense today, because of yesterday.
posted by lemontree @ 7:40 PM
8 Comments:
this nobody is not such a nobody as he/she is affecting you to upheveal a tempestuous of negativity within you. Wondering who this is?
"desert-ed" email to share the identity of this person.
I dont know u but i read ur blog religiously everyday waitin for somethin new. i was introduced to ur blog by a friend of mine. Let me just start by sayin i luv wat u write. and if i ever have enough resources i would like to publish all of these obviously with ur due permission. Secondly, thanx coz wat u write inspires me to learn life and go thru it coz we sometimes miss out small and big things in life and u make me realise how beautiful or ugly or disillusioned it is and still we survive it.
I am bad in givin compliments but i must say ur collections is one of the finest i have read .Sometimes i like to read it over and over again more than my favourite book.
Cheers and god bless u.
anonymous 1(a): you will be surprised how insignficant the person really is. email on way . since desert-ed may take some time :)
anonymous (truly): *blush* *more blush*
Thanks so much for the appreciation. It means a lot to me. Actually has made what was otherwise a completely ordinary day into a memorable wednesday.
:)
Wow. I agree with what you did. As in felt your feelings completely rather than trying to make little of them because this idiot (who triggered it) was insignificant. I am a firm advocate of the grieving process - feeling whatever you feel to the hilt, and then letting it go. It always does.
Glad you are feeling better now.
My my, I am impressed with the comments you have been genertaing. The book thing, even if its not really meant is a great compliment. (no offense to anonymous) as I hope it's said with the bst intention.
As for the other thing,I read the email and I am quite surprised. As you were getting along so well. Atleast superficially....quite true, quite a nobody in the bigger picture of your life.
I am sure ms.thu-thu, has something to say to this, as she tohught you shouldnt be talking to ms. mid-life-crisis too much to begin with only. Maybe she is jealous and insecure as thats the only thing I can comprehend.
God bless her!
Desert-ed
Jenn: Thanks. Am feeling great now. I guess we, some of us, need to hit the ground before we bounce back. Thanks for visiting!
Anonymous (a):Hey! Am glad you have become a regular- appreciation from you is harder to get and thus worth more. So is it my wiriting or just the desert-boredom. And thumbs up on the Ms TT coinage :) We rock!
Intuitively I understand this more than I want to let on. Well-written.
Like - would appreciate NOT being called Ms TT (sounds like TT underwear or something) on publcis forums like this!!!!
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