Personal Clock

Remix. Remix. Remix. Remix.
On Star One. Hate the name. Love the show. Why?
What about the show makes it tick. For me.
A show by, for and of 18 year olds appealing to the evolved me at 28.

Being a researcher and a self proclaimed psychoanalyst the why has always been of special interest to me. In this case more than just interest as have used media ethnography as a key research tool. What makes people addicts to certain serials, columns etc. What can we learn about them from their choices.

So this WHY is imp for me to answer not just for random reasons but even to validate my researcher self.

My brothers simple statement " U love this show cause you are still trying to live your co ed school fantasies." Some facts there. Simple. Bare.

From the macro perspective the show appeals to me at various levels. To my multiple self perceptions- real and aspirational.

But decoding further I find that most of us have a time clock. Some people live in the past, a few in the present and some in their tomorrow.

I am amongst those people who operates in her past. No doesn't mean I am more nostalgic than other people etc. Just that while living today my operative time clock is yesterdays.

So through college I was still living what can be called my Mater Dei School hangover.

I have a more obvious need to be in touch with people. To include them in my today. To continue to live my today like it were yesterday.

a minute to myself
devoid of anyone else
or anything else
no ceiling to stare at
no stimuli of any kind
no music, no book
no, not even a pen

just really me and myself
my thoughts for me
not a diary to be read