This Diwali

I have realised that I like playing cards more with people I have played before with. However it is important to add more people in the card human pyramid as some people may lose interest , quit playing or move away next Diwali.

I like a game to end with one big winner and a number of small losers rather than the other way round.

I do not like winning from younger people. Though there is nothing I can do about it.

I like winning from stuck up players. Players who have a loud opinion on everything. Who will suggest when they join the table that you play anti-clockwise, when everyone has been playing clock-wise or who will argue about Ace, Two, Three being higher than Ace , King, Queen. On my part I don't care as far as everyone else on the table is ok and agreeable. But for all those who argue lets rest it once and for all. King vs Two. What is higher? Can there be two points of view?

It is nice to temper diwali with things other than playing cards. Puja and Aditi do not play cards. And had some really nice moments with them over the weekend.

Due to the Saturday blasts (which I refuse to call 29/10- too gimicky) did not go to the card do in gurgaon. And due to an insane conversation with dad was given to belive that its best to be home as there may be a curfew , and you wouldn't want to be stuck somewhere else on diwali. Aditi came over. Did not want her to spend Diwali by herself in the hostel incase the worst happened. And with school-girl excitement the two of us watched Karmasutra. I saw the movie when it was released with Puja and Mansi. I remember loving it then. All in the name of art.
Now i love the movie. Period. HeHe. I think it is a bigger turn on then blue movies which continue to gross me out.

On Sunday post gymming met up with Puja. And we had the best time. Planned some dinners, which given our previous plans have a slim chance of ever happening, but were great planning. Complete with the ambience, guest list, decor etc. Checked out the new music system in her bar for one of those dinners. The system rocks.
Then we went out and got pedicures. Post which went looking for dhaba chai but settled at Barista for a cup of honey ginger tea. Felt teenagy and girly and best friendy. Except that when we were teenagers I don't remember getting a pedicure. And there were no Baristas.

Foot note:
What happened on Saturday was terrible. Should not have happened. However a thought I have sometimes voiced and sometimes not over the past 2 days whenever someone said "How will they sleep tonight?"

To them we are the enemy. And their goal is to destroy the enemy.
The question I really seek an answer to is that given their motivation, their sense of right and wrong , in the pursuit of their goals (which are likely to be worthy goals in their worlds)when they have done what they have done, would the Gods also forgive them. The Gods who have complete view of all sides. Do we feel angry only because we don't see the complete picture.

Metaphorically speaking

They say never judge a book by its cover.

Then how is one supposed to pick up a book in a bookstore with a million books there.
To begin with how does one even start.

I don't like to go on recommendations. Don't want to miss out on the thrill of finding something just by chance.

And then how long before one has to make the decision.
You can't possibly read the whole book at the bookstore. Its romantacised but believe me its uncomfortable. I like to lie down while reading my book. And you get stared at by the person waiting (almost in line) for you to vacate the chair.

So at most you flip through a couple of pages and make your decision. You strike a trade off, between being stuck with something tonight that you can't go beyond 20 minutes with and missing out on a book which really reads like the story of your life. You take your chance with one of the five contenders. The other four you miss out on. There are only so many reading hours.

Now if they had said "Never judge a book" at all , it would been a whole different thing.
Experience it, live it , think it, love it, hate it. Just don't judge it.

On a similar note , my mobile phone has just had a cover change. Have fallen in love with it all over again. From wanting to replace it this minute to recognising an unsaid connect between us.

a woman knows

women are perceptive about these things. we know when someone is making a pass. we know when someone is falling in love. with us. with our neighbour. we know when a trainee has a crush on us. we know when one of us has a thing for our boss. we know a friend from a lover.

we know that anon is in love with resonance and is driving her insane. and we know that the sun is all out to make the earth fall in love with him.

resonance knows. earth knows. they are women too.

then why do we pretend to not get it?
do we confuse innocence with ignorance?
do we assume that men too don’t get the difference?